Monday, June 8, 2020

June 8 2020

Black Lives Matter they chant in front of city hall,
as they march down the sidewalk, the street,
we listen to stories of violence, abuse
hope lives as we chant, as we march,
as I read signs that say, I am not a danger,
and Be the Change and Black Lives Matter

I grieve as I see signs that invite us to say
their names, that list the names, a few of the names,
some of the names, as I over hear a frustrated young
woman explain why Black Lives Matter is
important at this time and why All lives matter
cannot be used,  she used a wedding analogy

My grandson made a sign to take to a rally
in another town,  it said racism is bad,
he does not yet understand systems that
maintain racism, re enforce racism, support
racism,  he looks at me with pride and love
not knowing about his blond haired blue eyed privilege

I see a mother with a sign that says when one mother
 is called, all mothers are called,  and my mother
heart is reminded again that all those names, that
incomplete list of names had a mother, has a mother
who is grieving, who lives with fear in the midst
of grieve because of the colour of her skin

I am a mother,  I am a grandmother
I worry for the grandchildren,
for the children
I know, I love, who do not have
white skin

There was a peaceful  protest today
organized by youth
I am filled with hope and
I am filled despair.

gloria fern June 2020



Wednesday, June 3, 2020

Expectation

The waiting is over,
must be over,  
no more acceptance
of helplessness

no more waiting for the pandemic
to be over

no more waiting
on this pandemic of racism
on this pandemic of celebrating obscene wealth
on this pandemic of raping our earth
on this pandemic of violence

no more waiting on these pandemics
that are killing the most vulnerable

these pandemics that have stolen so many lives

the waiting is over.

gloria fern June 3, 2020

Sunday, May 31, 2020

Dysania

another 
black human 
dead

change
required 
to burnish
hope

another 
black human 
dead

change
required 
to burnish
hope

another            

                  change?

gloria fern May 2020




 


Monday, May 25, 2020

Safety ?

bees cover the current bush

orange, yellow, blue
red, prayer flags
shredded

birds dance

dog poop
everywhere, I think
stubbed toes, sour dough that did
not rise today,  soup too salty,
or sweet
or not

mud covered they do not
run towards me but laugh
threateningly
six feet away from a
hug

there will be no
mud on me

I am
safe

and now there
is rain
my heart feels it

all

feels it all.

gloria fern May 2020

Monday, May 18, 2020

Teeter Totter


hearts in windows, flowers on tables
still blooming to those who mother,
and grandmother with gratitude and love,
wind on the backs, of the littles who know
how to maintain distance connection
without contradiction

my sister in law graduated yesterday,
photos sent in time and space,
a grandson's graduation ceremony
will be on Wednesday, we will be able
to attend without eight hours of travel,
oh bitter joy

 "hope is the expectation of future joy"
the sign in the window on this day
of May showers drizzling down on me,
on our dog, on the freshly planted
seedlings smiling from their
squirrel turned soil.

gloria fern May 18 2020



Friday, May 15, 2020

No Zoom Today



Giddy excitement filled me
as I prepared for

six or seven or eight feet apart 
art shared with elaborate story
six or seven or eight feet apart
smell the bottoms of the fritalaria
six or seven or eight feet apart
children  kneel in the ground
six  or seven or eight feet apart
smelling skunks in plants,
six or seven or eight feet apart
examine seeds, and create mud puddles,
six or seven or eight feet apart
games (newly acquired)  shown and explained, 
six or seven or eight feet apart
watch the agility of climbers
six or seven or eight feet apart
the swing, the slide to slide to slide race
six or seven or eight feet apart
climbing hills, laughing,
six or seven or eight feet apart

your and

          your and

               your presence.

 felt            held.


gloria fern May 15, 2020




Monday, May 11, 2020

The First Day

with thanks to Mary Oliver

after your arrival
I jumped up and down
I clapped my hands,
I stared into space.

I walked toward the first warm sting of possibility

in those days I was hungry for emptiness,
go ahead tell me I was both silly and serious
as my stomach groaned for the
improbable possibility of days
without demand or calendars

on the first day in spite of
national, international news
I heard only the music from balconies,
the violinists, the soloists,
the gratitude from empty streets

my imagination did not stretch
like the birds in flight overhead
its range did not enter my heart now emptied
of curly cuddles,  it could not extend to
the frozen soil of my longing

after your arrival
I jumped up and down, 
I clapped my hands, 
I stared into space. 

gloria fern May 11, 2020